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  • Apr 22, 6:38 AM SilverNeurotic said:

    I think when life is difficult, that’s when our true self comes in.  When we get too comfortable in a place, then we don’t have to work so hard and we fall back into our negative personality traits. 

    I spent a year and a half living upstate NY but due to several different reasons-I moved back to NJ to live with my family.  When I was away, I was a much more confident and fearless person.  I REALLY miss that side of myself.

  • Apr 22, 7:44 AM HalfCrazy said:

    Maybe this is a new phase for you? We all get into different phases that seems so different from our previous one.

    Hey, maybe if you go back to San Diego, they maybe you would feel like a happier person again. Maybe you left something in San Diego? You missed something? Try writing again after you get to spend time in there.

  • Apr 22, 8:02 PM Regina said:

    Awww *hugs* I hope your trip to San Diego makes you happier. I haven`t had a chance yet to be independent, and I look forward to being a broke college student in the future. raspberry

  • Apr 23, 4:41 AM Kimeh said:

    Maybe I’ll feel this when I finish school. I just can’t wait to finish school. ;D

  • Apr 24, 12:45 PM Meredith said:

    It is a nice camera :D So far it’s taken pretty good pictures, although I haven’t actually taken that many.  I may later today though smile

    Yeah, things probably would have been worse if we fought back.. but we really WEREN’T doing anything, so he could have just asked us nicely to leave o.O

    I hope things get better for you soon :(  I know how you feel, and it’s really not fun.  I hope your trip to San Diego makes things at least a bit better smile

  • Apr 28, 7:47 AM Ys said:

    I think you’re right: more time does give us more time to think and that can lead to stressing out about things we wouldn’t normally stress about :/  I hope the trip back rejuvinates you.  Sometimes just getting away from every day life can remind you who you really are smile

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Apr 22 2010

Get Away from My Current Self

3:07 AM  |  Life

I feel like I was generally a happier person back when I was living in San Diego.  Even though I was a broke college student; life wasn’t exactly comfortable; there were many more things I had to worry about and stress over, but somehow I was a lot more content with life. I was able to simply be happy by myself.

Nowadays I dislike myself for my insecurity and lack of confidence, for being silly enough to get my hopes up over boys that are out of my league, for giving myself chances to get hurt, for being pathetic enough to get emotional over it. Maybe I’ve always been this way, perhaps it was just the lack of time that prevented me from realizing it. Or maybe it was because I was still young and it felt like I had all the time in the world. Only now do I feel like I had left possibilities slipping by without even knowing I would regret it.

This upcoming weekend trip to San Diego is very much appreciated, and exactly what I needed; to get away from my current self, even just for a little bit.