Movie

Apr 12 2010

“I felt he found my letters and read each one out loud”

3:04 AM  |  Friends  |  Movie  |  Music  |  Life  |  8 comments

Friday I got off work early, so I went up to Berkeley and watched How to Train Your Dragon with Wally, Raymond, and Justin. It was a very cute movie. Probably not good enough to be on the top movie list or anything, but certainly very enjoyable and deserved to be watched in the theater. Honestly, I really wasn’t planning on watching it at all, but Johnny kept talking about it on his tumblr and I got curious. I’m glad I watched it though. We were supposed to get dinner Wednesday night, but he totally flaked out on me.  I was very disappointed ‘cause I was really hoping to hang out with him, and I was also mad at myself for getting depressed over it. He replied the next day saying he didn’t get my message and set up another time to hang out on Friday. I half-heartedly agreed but honestly I didn’t think it was going to happen. I just don’t get the vibe that he genuinely wants to hang out with me. Since I got off work early on Friday I made plan with Wally, and then he texted me about the dinner. I was tempted to head back down to south bay to go to dinner with him, but staying with Wally just seemed easier. Maybe it’s just not meant to be. Maybe next time. If it’s meant to happen, it will. I guess.

After the movie, we went over to Eric’s place to hang out. He had a little get-together and a bunch of people were over. One of his friends knows card-readings and he was giving everyone a reading.  What he said about my reading totally freaked me out. The two face cards were facing each other, so the guy I was thinking about has also thought about me romantically as well, but even though I’m ready for a relationship and I’ve put my heart out there, he’s just not ready for one and there are other things he has to work out first. My prolonged interest in him has also made things a bit awkward between us. I usually don’t believe in or pay much attention to superstitious things like this, but that reads like the story of my life.  I was consciously thinking about Johnny, but somehow it sounded more about Wally. I don’t know, and it doesn’t matter. This could be said about any of the boys I liked.  I’m always putting myself out there; always too eager while everyone else is being reserved. Things always end up getting awkward one way or another. Or maybe it’s all in my head; maybe I just get way too sensitive over the little things.

The rest of the weekend was a good distractor though. The Davis boys organized a scavenger hunt in downtown San Francisco on Saturday. I met a lot of people there and it was fun walking around Chinatown and doing goofy missions at Union Square. Sunday night was the Mayday DNA World Tour concert. Wes, Wally, Wayne, Mason, and I all got tickets to go months ago. I think Wayne and I were the only two who were really excited about it though ‘cause we actually listen to Mayday’s music, while the rest just got dragged along by us. I was really looking forward to it, since it was my first real big concert. Even though the atmosphere and the crowd were great, it is still a bit underwhelming for me in Mayday’s standard. Perhaps I just had too high of an expectation because of all the live concert DVDs I’ve seen of them. This is a relatively small venue for them after all. I had fun though and I’m certainly glad I went.

Apr 2 2010

“Why do you always think that no one cares about you?”

12:46 AM  |  Friends  |  Movie  |  5 comments

I was talking to Raymond the other night and he asked if everything’s okay with me. Apparently I seemed down last time when we all hung out. I wasn’t completely surprised since people have told me I wear my heart on my sleeves. However, I was surprise he noticed and took the time to follow up with me. This is something that happens quite often with me. Whenever I develop feelings for a boy, I get so attached and completely forget about all the other people around me; My head gets so wrapped up in the boy that I feel like I have no one else in this world. This is certainly not healthy and something I really need to work on changing if I can help it.

This reminds me of what Aex told Mew in The Love of Siam, which I watched for the 36th time with Chris on Tuesday when I started making the effort to branch out and hang out with my friends. It was his first time watching it and I’m glad it has made as big an impact on him as it has on me.

Aug 15 2008

“As long as there is love, there is hope”

10:49 AM  |  Culture  |  Movie  |  8 comments

Tong and the dollDo you know that feeling you get after watching a powerful and meaningful movie that speaks to you? One that would leave a mark on your perspective and forever change you? Rak haeng Sayam, or The Love of Siam, is one such movie. Despite it being out for almost nine months, I have just heard about it from Chris when he visited last week. I briefly looked it up online and made the mistake of judging it as a cheesy teenage drama from its sappy looking poster, but the charmingly good-looking protagonists were enough to get me interested. Without much to lose, I decided to download the director's cut version, which is about thirty minutes longer than the original with a three hour running time, and give it a try. It was as much a pleasure as it was a curse to have watched this film. It hit something tender and lonely in me, and I have so deeply immersed in the story that I have already watched it three times in the past few days. I'm a sensitive and emotional person, but I don't remember when was the last time a film has made me cry. ... more »

 1 2 >